“Your memories, your love / I have locked away in my soul / Nothing or no one can touch / Your memories, your love” ~Mary Faith This weekend we hosted our 3rd Annual gathering of Ryan’s friends at our lake. It has been two years since our last one. Two years watching...

Guilt about a life that was worthy but never fully appreciated still remains 3 years later. There will always be consequences for our actions, mine will be wondering, “what if..” I caution you not to take yourself or others for granted. There may come a time when you...

Embrace life. Even when the days aren’t sunny and warm.Even when there feels like there is little “sweetness”. Even when your friends feel far away. Because you are gifted this opportunity; equal parts difficult; equal parts beautiful, a sum of our life’s totality. It...

“The more a daughter knows the details of her mother’s life the stronger the daughter.” – Anita Diamant I am the person I am because of my mother. The kind parts, the stubbornness, the expressions of love that are so evident in the lines of our faces and the shared...

For anyone that knows me; well they might have quite a few adjectives (not sure if that is a good or bad thing really) but one we can all agree on is: I drink wine. I love charcuterie boards. I live to travel. I obsess about reading. I don’t enjoy laborious jobs. Oh...

Scott began his journey for his Project Management Certification before Ryan went missing. Much of our life was put on hold and rightly so. I’m so proud that Scott took the steps, and the time to finish what he started. Every move is for growth and advancement to push...

The last 3 1/2 years have taken their toll. I know that. It hurts my soul to know that our desire to search and connect with Ryan has been hampered by COVID and now forest fires. But that is just a temporary measure. I know that as well. I look around with such...

I feel this. Too many times we wait, for something more or better, we wish for justice or divine intervention, we live for the opportunity and pray for the luck. Everything is just around the corner it seems, if we can just get past this part. We all want to be happy...

It was a perfect weekend at the lake. Surrounding yourself with good people will always be a definite plus. Sunshine, laughter and friends gave such peace, that I’m sorry to see the time go by so fast. We are definitely lucky particularly coming home and seeing the...

I met Scott at about the same age as Ryan was before he vanished. My husband has always been kind, loyal, equal parts stubborn and empathic and incredibly loving. But I think as you grow up together, you tend to see each other as young as the day you first met. You...