October 2nd, 2018

Monday February 19th will always be for me; an awakening. Petrified, paralyzed with doubt and fear, I walked into an empty command center. In that moment, I knew that whatever I was before wasn’t enough. The need to be focused, driven, determined and unrelenting...

September 26th, 2018

This week Scott went back to work. I don’t know if it was time or if he was ready however sometimes we don’t have a choice. I know he feels guilty. I know he has hesitation. I wish I could alleviate that stress for Scott. But I’m no better. I don’t have the answers to...

Septemer 24th, 2018

The search of reason ends at the shore of the known” – Abraham Joshua Heschel We will always search for you, Ryan

September 21st, 2018

What would you do? If you were me? If your child had gone missing without a trace? What mountains would you move?? Every morning I wake up with an optimism that today is the day. And each night I go to bed thinking that I failed my first born. But oh it’s the time in...

September 19th, 2018

13 years ago as we waited for the birth of our last child; a girl, we all made a wish. From her mother, I wished that she would be beautiful and kind. Her father, closed his eyes and wished that his daughter would be intelligent and loving. One by one, this little...