October 2nd, 2018

Monday February 19th will always be for me; an awakening. Petrified, paralyzed with doubt and fear, I walked into an empty command center. In that moment, I knew that whatever I was before wasn’t enough. The need to be focused, driven, determined and unrelenting...

September 26th, 2018

This week Scott went back to work. I don’t know if it was time or if he was ready however sometimes we don’t have a choice. I know he feels guilty. I know he has hesitation. I wish I could alleviate that stress for Scott. But I’m no better. I don’t have the answers to...

Septemer 24th, 2018

The search of reason ends at the shore of the known” – Abraham Joshua Heschel We will always search for you, Ryan

September 21st, 2018

What would you do? If you were me? If your child had gone missing without a trace? What mountains would you move?? Every morning I wake up with an optimism that today is the day. And each night I go to bed thinking that I failed my first born. But oh it’s the time in...

September 19th, 2018

13 years ago as we waited for the birth of our last child; a girl, we all made a wish. From her mother, I wished that she would be beautiful and kind. Her father, closed his eyes and wished that his daughter would be intelligent and loving. One by one, this little...

September 17th, 2018

I find that I don’t hunch my shoulders in Sun Peaks. I am able to walk tall. After all, we have been together since the beginning. This community has watched as we walked in desperation, our eyes hollow and shattered. They have seen us slowly shake off the chains of...