In my life journeyMemories of failure cause painThinking of you gives hopeBetween that, I breathe

– Ehsan Sehgal.

Some days I feel like I don’t belong. Not in the world that I have been thrust into nor the world of my choosing. I feel unsettled between who I was, who I am now and who I desperately want to be.

I’m in between.

The last 3 weeks away, waiting and searching takes its toll. My body bares the brunt of my efforts. In time the scratches and bruises will heal. I can only hope that my soul will repair itself again. I admit it gets harder each visit. I struggle with a sense of hopelessness, duty and determination to do what others say cannot be done.

I’m in between.

I’m grateful to everyone that continues to support and love us while we undertake this journey. We find ourselves blessed with the generosity of people’s hearts that show up consistently and without question. But must then contend with the hurt of those who should and don’t. With no destination in sight, if we feel the strain, I suppose I can’t blame those that don’t offer to stay. Except my heart does.

I’m in between. But I’m not lost.

We are back home. Thank you to everyone that loved us and cared for us on this last visit. I love you more than I can say.